Everywhere i go, i just see 'them' around... they... are not mine.. but it only hurts me inside whenever i saw them. have neva felt this painful before. there is no word to describe the feeling. tears just come by naturally . uncontrollably .
i do not want to give up life. but i really donno what's the point to go on life like this also. i have frens who still care about me. but i'm not strong enough to just move on with their support. i can't even get a grip on their helping hands. it's like so far away... unreachable.. even though it's there, i think.
i really need a guidance. to show me which direction to go. or rather, i really need someone to just catch me up and go. *sigh* whatever it is there is nothing i can count on atm..........